I’ll Go Back To Meds..

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So 2016 hasn’t got off to a great start. Seems depression and anxiety are constantly fighting it out to be priority in my life right now. As a result things have started to spiral to the point I’m now bordering on agoraphobic, I barely eat, and where I was insomniac I’ve now gone full on nocturnal. Seriously I have the same sleeping pattern as my cat!

My ability to keep up a normal act is slipping. I can’t make myself cook or clean the house, I can’t make polite conversation. All I want to do is hide away from the world and it’s beginning to show. My few friends are fed up with my delayed replies to their messages. My mother is upset I haven’t been asking about her job or her hospital appointments. I know to them I’m selfish and uncaring which only fuels my own self hatred. But recently I just have no energy for their problems, it’s taking everything I have to get through each day. Yet I cannot explain it to them without the comments ‘maybe you should be sectioned’

So tomorrow I have an appointment with my doctor about going back on medication. I tried several different drugs last year that were about as effective as popping skittles, but to be honest I just don’t know what else to do.

16 thoughts on “I’ll Go Back To Meds..”

  1. I hear you loud and clear. I know all about what you talk about here. Medication is a bitch because you, as I’m sure you already know, have to go on so many different ones, to find the “right” one for you. Sometimes, it’s easier to give up, if you don’t find that “right” one for you, pretty quickly. The side effects of some of these meds are just not worth it because they can make us feel worse than we already do. After many years of on meds, off meds, on meds, off meds, I finally got the “right” cocktail for me. I wish you the best with your doctor appointment. Maybe you will find the “right” one, sooner than later. Take care. xx 🙂

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    • You are so right it’s a horribly long process. 6 weeks for the meds to kick in, suffering the side effects, then going through increasing doses only to find you have to start all over with a new med! I’m glad you finally found the “right” ones for you, it gives me hope that it is possible! Thank you for the support 🙂 xx

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      • I wish you the best on your journey. It’s never easy. Just don’t give up on the medication because there is one out there for you. It’s funny how we all react to the same meds, differently. I went through a lot of them, gave up, lived miserably, for a long, long, time. I snapped, as will you, if you don’t get the medication you need. I’m sorry to say that, but it’s just the reality of it. Maybe you’ll get lucky and the first medication you test out, will be the one for you. I sure hope so. I don’t want you to have to go through all of that. Hang in there. You’re not alone. I’m here. I care. We can walk the journey together, never alone. So, no giving up, right? There is hope……….just have to have patience, as difficult as it is. I’m a fine one to be talking about patience. LOL 🙂 maybe I should start practicing what I’m preaching. It’s all easier said than done. xx 🙂 Take care. Have a great night. I’m here if you ever need to talk, vent, or whatever. I’m a good listener.

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      • Yes, I believe we all need a little reassurance and support. The journey isn’t easy for any of us. Hang in there. I hope you had a good day, today. xx 🙂 I’ll be working on that patience thing. LOL 🙂

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  2. Oh boy, been there. Turns out my 2nd, 14th, 16th, and 17th meds altogether were the combo I needed. God, it was frustrating to get there, but now I actually feel the sun on my face when it shines.
    It takes a ton of strength to ask for help when you’ve been failed before. I don’t know you, but I’m proud of you for reaching out again.
    Best wishes in your healing!

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  3. I’m really sorry you’re struggling so much. I know how tiring anxiety can be and how sometimes all you want to do is sleep. Have you tried doing some light exercising? It doesn’t have to be anything intense, just enough to get your body moving a little. You could also try dancing a little, even if it’s to one song to get your mind concentrating on the music and to get yourself up and moving. Stay strong and work hard! You’ll get through this!

    I’m also sorry that some of your friends aren’t being understanding. If they care about you enough, they should make more of an effort. However, just because they might not, doesn’t mean they don’t care. Some people simply don’t know how to help.

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  4. Thank you, it’s so exhausting I’ve been sleeping 11-13 hours each day! On a good day I make myself go for a walk but in Winter its difficult. I got some different medication today so maybe it will help take the edge off. I hope you are well 🙂

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    • How’s your new medication working for you???? Sorry, I vanished for awhile……Sometimes, there are things, more important than me. Can you believe that?????? More important than me?????? LOL 🙂 Anyway, those more important people and things, sometimes need me, more than I need them, and I have to reverse roles……………..for today, I’m back. Hope you’re getting the relief you’ve been searching for. When you have a moment, I would love to hear how you are doing………..Hang in there. XXX 🙂

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      • Hi there 🙂 Ah I can sympathise there sometimes other things can take up so much time and energy we have nothing left for ourselves! It’s nice to see you back on WordPress 🙂
        I was increased to 40mg of Citalopram and still not noticing any significant change so I imagine it will be a shiny new medication new week! I hope you are doing well! xx

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      • No significant change means no bad side affects or anything, I’m assuming? You’re lucky if that’s the case. Don’t waste too much time on one medication. However, they say that some can take up to 6 weeks to really notice a change. Move on to the next one. One day at a time. If you don’t give up, you’ll find what’s right for you. I can’t even tell you how many I went through before finding the “one” for me. Hopefully, these days, there are more improved meds on the market? One can hope. I”m happy to see you workin’ it. You’ll find what’s right or not right for you, in due time…….I wish you nothing, but but the best as you embark on your journey. Have a great night. 🙂

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      • I had some awful side effects at the beginning but now it just makes me very tired. I’ve been on this one over 6 weeks so I think time for the next one! I think there are a lot more medications to choose from now so hopefully one works!!

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      • Six weeks, no improvement, I wouldn’t waste anymore time on this one. Yes, there are so many more for you to try. The right one for you is out there, you just have to be patient, easier said than done, I know……….Keep hangin’ in there and before you know it, you’ll be feeling GREAT! Hope you’re having a great day. Take care. 🙂

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